Life rhyme

My life is changing day by day
starting to fill wit clouds of gray
try as they might ma guardian angles couldn't blow them away
so i sit bak plottin ma great escape
but i feel trapped tied down by tape
struggle as i might as hard as i try
i feel suffocated almost ready to die
so i call out hopin sum1 hears me
but ma voice is stifled and no1 hears ma plea
y cant the world let me b me
we know that wont happen cuz its unlikely
pay it forward ppl say tho i feel ready to die
instead of death i think i may just cry
holding the tears bak aint an easy task
so ill try n put ma pain away in a flask
day to day with questions ppl will ask
but these problems i put away to keep under the mask
i hope ppl don't wish to b me
cuz ma life n me have problems u c
change who i am sumtimes i wish i could
this is one thin not as easy as i should
i got ppl laughin at me n those makin jokes
i laugh with them even tho i wanna choke
writin problems down takes sum time
reading it over again makes it seem so sublime
just breathe says a doctor with a stethoscope
but i feel like i aint got no hope
missin my uniqueness
losing my own likeness
feelin like a mold made by a little tyke kid
don't wanna b a clone and do wut sum1 else did
to get ma life bak ill do wut it takes to get the bid
everything i write is from the heart
gone thro so much wouldn't hurt if i got shot wit a dart
there is one thin i don't want is for ma heart to become cold
as i fear it sumtimes happens to those as they get old