Secrecy

Secrecy
Is it good?
Is it bad?
Maybe it was better for me to be spared
Or maybe this is so hard because I was never told

He almost slit your throat
You were almost dead
But you were saved
And your savior was blamed

Now I'm here
Resented by someone i love
I know you love me too
But nothing can bring us together

You hate too much
But maybe its not your fault
I wasn't supposed to find out
Maybe no one told you either

But i didn't know why
All this secrecy is necessary
Maybe I'm the only one kept out of the light
I just want to understand

Then ill move on
But right now this is too strong
When I didn't know I was alright
Figured there were just parts that didn't matter

But now I know
A little more now
Things that I couldn't have imagined
Yet there is so much I still dint
I just want to be answered

But I cant because
I wasn't supposed to find out
All I can do is sit here and let it eat me up inside
All these secrets
Deep inside