Forever and Always

What we had was happiness
but happiness began appearing less and less
i was confused
whats why i did what i had to do

I want you to be happy
live your life
it'll be much better without me
it wont be just sight after sight

I don't care about me
i have now no meaning
cause now you're forever gone
and its all my doing

But i don't want it to end like this
no friendship or words
please don't make me walk away with nothing but tears
after all 3 wonderful years

I still want you in my life
i still dream of being your wife
but for now i need you here
here in my heart which without you is bare

I know i hurt you
like i have many times
and im sorry
but my apologies will not change your mind

Not only have i hurt you
but i once again have lied
while i was with you
i was also kissing another guy

Now you know why there cannot be an us
because once again
i have disobeyed your trust
with that secret kept inside my heart begins to rust

I want to be with you
but i cant
i am unfaithful
and i really done deserve another chance

I never will completely get over you
never let you go
as days go on
i feel like i don't want to live no more

But im going to stay strong
im going to have a future
and hopefully by then
we will be together again

You said you wont take me back
id don't blame you this time
because the appreciation you were seeking in me
i lacked

All the time i said i love you
i meant it and thats obviously true
and when i said i wanted to marry you
i still do

Like i told you once before
and what i said will never change
forever and always john
i will love you