Betrayal

I love you oh so very much,
Though we're never face-to-face,
But all the things I've said and done
Have made me a disgrace

In the dark I call your name
And wish that you were here
For only with you by my side
Will I be without fear.

I long to hold your hand once more,
I want to see your face,
I wish to see your smile again,
To feel your warm embrace.

But as I think of all the joy,
And happiness you'd bring,
A shadow lurks inside my mind,
A dark and wretched thing.

There is another man in me,
A side you haven't seen,
He lives within the weak and wounded,
His shining blades are keen.

This side of me, his name is rage,
He is my fear, my pain,
And though I've tried to hide him from you,
My efforts are in vain

And as I fight against my anger,
I begin to realize,
It is you who brought him out of me,
You provoked him with your lies.

I told you that I loved you,
And I recall you led me on,
And when I had given all to you,
How swiftly you were gone.

You said there was another,
And that I should have known,
And on that dark and painful night,
All barriers were blown.

I stood outside your silent house,
The rain began to pour
I screamed your name aloud in pain
And ripped open your front door.

I felt now sick and mindless,
As I slowly closed your door,
I held a knife inside my fist,
And my heart upon the floor.

You didn't hear me walking
Up the stairway to your room,
And did not answer when I knocked
And brought inside your doom.

But your dying day would not yet come
For you were not in here,
But as I looked, I saw one thing,
That made me shed one tear

Upon your desk, next to your bed,
Inside a heart-shaped frame,
The photograph of you and I,
From when, I cannot name

Now I heard footsteps up the stairs,
And so I had to hide,
And from the doorway to the closet,
I watched you walk inside

I watched you fall upon your bed,
And saw you fall asleep,
I could no longer hold my pain
And I began to weep

I walked over to your bedside,
And wiped raindrops from your face
And when your eyes had opened up,
I was gone without a trace

The blade I held inside my fist
Came crashing to the floor,
I left the house, welcomed the rain
And regained myself once more

But days went by, and my pain grew
Into my mind you tore
And once again, to my dismay
I stood outside your door

I tried so hard to help myself
But my efforts were in vain,
I picked my knife up off the ground
And helped to end the pain

I grabbed the handle of the knife,
And pushed the blade through my chest
My face went pale, my body cold
The blood on my shirt, my crest

I worked my way toward the wall,
And fell down to the lawn,
A tear fell as my sight went dark,
At last my pain was gone.

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