Fighting The Urge

Anger is a emotion that is common
but common is above me
anger to me is daily

When i would get angry
i\'d take a piece of paper out
then i would write about all the emotions i held
i wrote it all down

It helped for a while
but soon enough i felt like a trapped child
locked behind a tall closet door

It just was no longer enough
then times got really rough
and i began to cut

I would cut almost every week
but even though ive stopped
the tears still leak

Whenever i get angry i feel a surge
it says to do it
do it now and it will feel good
but right now im fighting that urge

Im going to finally stop
put all this behind me
turn all those urges i have off

Im fighting that urge
putting all of my scissors away
so that when i fell my anger building up
i can find another way to throw it away

I stopped and went back
but this time self control is what i wont lack
control is what i would seek from it
but now control is what i have

So im fighting the urge to cut
this fight wont be easy
it will be hard
but the urge will be the on to have lost