WiShInG i WaS gOnE

The screaming and yelling echoes in my head
I wake up in the morning only wishing to be dead
No one can save me I'm too far along
The smiles and happiness are all gone
It's too hard to turn back
My life is way off of track
But I hide it all so well
The secret I'll never tell
I'll never let you see
The secret that hides the real me
Straight perfect lines that cure me from my pain
Take away my sorrow but it returns once again
It hurts to know no one loves you and it was all just a lie
But all you can do to release it is cut...cut ...then cry
When you own mother doesn't have the nerve to look you in the eye
And the pain overcomes you no matter how hard you try
You wake up in the morning wishing you were never born
Your heart has been stepped on, thrashed, then finally torn
Then you find the solution that will scar everyone 'til the end
You'll take that razorblade, that you call your one true friend
Take the slice along your smooth skin
One cut for all of those who said you never fit in
And two for all the pain and sadness they caused your broken heart
Three for all the wicked games that tore you apart
Four for all the things they said that your soul will never mend
And that final cut along your wrist for all those that said they were your friend
So now I lie here writing this final goodbye
I hope one day you know I felt and how you made me cry
I know I tried my hardest to stay and hold strong
But I couldn't play along anymore I was the answer that was wrong.....