Lies

I feel fake
I wear these happy feelings like a mask
Like a deodorant to cover a stench
The stench of failure
Death
Depression
Sadness
Hate

All these are true
The face I keep for myself
Sometimes I almost believe my laughter
Sometimes I believe the lies
I tell myself
I know who the real me is
The fake I have sold myself

I use this mask to help others stay happy
No one knows the real me
Im mr perfect to them
Im happy
Funny
Caring

But all this time fighting the darkness
That overwhelms my life
Im going to destroy the lies
But what if I destroy the real feelings will I be happy

Or just another fake
I know which rout to take
I just hope I havent made a mistake