I woke up in a nightmare
Some people call it reality
I can feel the icey air
But it doesn't seep into me
To angry to be cold
To closed off to be known
Many have tried to get into my mind
Talk words that are supposed to mean something to me
When all it is, is more stress that only I seem to see
There should be someone out in the world
That can relate to my pain, doesn't want there love sold
I'm nothing to be played around with, over and over again
And I wont let it happen
Some of you take it upon yourselves to look for emotion
To give away your innocence and ask for eternal devotion
Why do you rush into it all?
What's wrong with waiting for the fall
Abusing something so fragile and delicate
The pain and loss and corruption, could you handle it?
If you had a choice, would you still go through it?
I crawled into my dark shadows of lonliness
Waiting for something I was promised
Living this way doesn't bother me
Not in a way any of you could see
I choose to be the way I'll be
I know that someday I'll be truly happy
Somewhere in life I'll find myself
I wont always be this alone
So here I'll shut out everyone else
Show me that you're strong
That you were what I was waiting for
You wont hurt me like before
Maybe I'll let you in
Will you cause me to give in?
Cut me until I feel you
Let me know what you feel is true
I'm not angry, and this isn't a mistake
All I want is to be safe
