Pieces Scattered on the Street

Pieces Scattered on the Street
(this love I thought I knew)

Here I am
walking these deserted streets
I can never clear my mind
so i just keep on walking
past the dull light of street lamps
into the grace of the moon
is that the only place now
I can find solace and comfort?

I find myself searching
for the broken shards
I thought i left out here
in this lonely cold night
that welcomes me so dearly.

I think back
to that one day
to that one night
so small and sweet
was your kindness and hope
but so overcoming
your embarrassment of me.
what did i ever do
to deserve this from you?
reminiscing on before...

I tied to stay steady
I tried to keep it small
but it just grew and grew
this love i thought i knew
but now you back away
Lie, shake your head and say
its not true...its not true...

I thought i could let you go
If I ever heard you say no
It was easy to deny at first
but when it finally struck me
I collapsed in a pile of tears.

You stole it from me.
this love, this friendship
stop changing your mind
stop denying your heart.

the stale sweetness of your breath
still lingers on my face.
You seemed so caring
when you offered me your kindness
I felt almost for sure
that you had finally given in.
but the next moment
you say to him
its not true...its not true.

only a friend
only a friend.
memories...
forever discarded
as only childhood innocence
nothing worth keeping to you.
but everything to me.

it just grew and grew
the love i thought i knew
but you kept saying
its not true...its not true.

now i fall to my knees
crying out your name
your close enough to hear me
but your are deaf to my love
i move my blind hands over the pavement
pushing aside the withered leaves
only looking for the pieces
of my heart scattered on the street
the streets you ran down
to come back to my house
but by the end of our time
you were in a hurry to be back
even though you wanted to stay
so you rushed off with my heart
but dropped it on the way
not compassionate enough
to take a step back to retrieve it.

blowing wind screaming shadows
everything closing in around me
trapping me in thoughts of you
caring and mean, loving and cruel
how dare you make me so happy
how dare you keep me so alone.

so I'll just keep searching
for every piece left of my heart
that is still scattered
on these sad deserted streets
and maybe someday you'll think of me
and see me as something more than
only a friend...only a friend

I thought i could let you go
if I ever heard you say no
but it just grew and grew
this love i thought i knew
and now you keep saying
"its not true...its not true"