Trying this dance

I have a confession
That i must say
I have an obsession
Of trying to be OK

I'm a normal kid
Why do i fall so hard?
Was it something i did
That caught me off-guard?

Ask me a year ago
If i would like to die
It was only i who would know
Why i never want to cry

I'd leave this place
In a heartbeat, i would
I shatter to the problems i face
And I'd break if i could

Time is the only healer
To mend a broken life
Finding a new reliever
Instead of a stained knife

There's no 'No U-Turn' signs
So how about i slow down
I'll cross the lines
To turn my left BACK around

And now there's no turning back
I'm full speed ahead
I'm trying to get back on track
Instead of becoming dead

I can't erase my past
But i won't live in regret
Unfortunately the effects will last
And the memories i won't forget

But what i can do
Is to believe in only me
I really want to
But it's so hard to see

Stress is coming up aside of me
I'm starting to feel heart pain
This house is a blockade
That's putting me in the rain

But i won't let this get me down
No, i won't give in
I won't fall down without a sound
This is where i begin

Fix my life, fix it NOW
Because the days are passing by
God, i need you, show me how
Help me as i die to try

So here we go
It's sort of a second chance
I'm trying more than you'll ever know
To get a hold of life's little dance