I am the one person I fear the most.
Others may hurl abuse, give abuse, threaten abuse
But it is my own state of mind which determines the pain.
If I am weak I'm vulnerable
They'll hurt me and that's my fault
I fear that I won't always be strong
I fear that I'll break down my own wall and let them in too far
I fear that I'll make bad judgements which will affect my life in such a way I could never have imagined.
I fear that I will let good opportunities go by
I fear that I've already let good opportunities go by
I fear that I'm always going to be too afraid to let myself live my life without regrets and fear
