I Still Love You

The past is all that seems
To be able to fill my mind
At this point in time.
Bittersweet memories
Of what we use to be
Is all that surrounds me.
They're controlling
My thoughts,
Not letting me forget
How happy we once were.
And as I sit here
Drowning in the emotions
That have returned
From the unforgettable experience,
I contemplate...
What happened?
Where did it all go wrong?
And why did I give up
On something
That I wanted so much
To last...
To last forever.
Why did I make that choice?
A decision I can't take back.

I still love you
As I always have.
I still have feelings for you
That have not once
Been enlightened.
But even though those feelings
Are still there,
I am not there for you,
And I can't go back
To what we use to have.
There is someone new
In my life,
And I love him too.
I can't hurt him
And I can't give up on him
Like I did you.
I'm sorry to have to say this,
But we need to say
Our final goodbyes.
We both need to move on
And fulfill our roles
In our lives.
As much as it hurts to say this,
I hope you understand
And maybe the future
Will sometime bring us
Together again.

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