Dear Sweet Torment

Much to lose yet much to gain
Soon you realise it's all the same.
And as I watch the slumberless cries,
I know that now I'm soon to die,
I keep on praying to same old prayer,
Hoping that there's love to spare,
But once again I'm all alone,
For the love I held was never shown,
Running away won't do any good,
I could be running forever and yet I would,
Still hold the memories inside my head,
The ones that make my soul so dead,
And though I try to save my life,
Cut through every murderous strife,
It never ends, this continous pain,
It keeps happening over and over until I'm insane,
And the love I fear is like one thousands knifes,
Harshly dug into my insides,
Making my bleed, making me feel,
A love I thought was never real,
This torturing love which will never be true,
Because although this heart loves you,
I know that Never did you or will you love me too.