I can\'t do it

I told you I can\'t do promises,
They end up leaving others destraught,
\"Never tell anyone you\'ll keep promises\",
It\'s always a lesson I\'ve taught.

There\'s no hope left in this life,
But I must keep going for yor sake,
In my hand I\'m grasping onto a kinfe,
I\'m about to make the biggest mistake.

My eyes are swolen from tears,
My throat is frozen from silent screams,
My heart is broken after all thesse years,
Yet I must stay alive so it seems.

I just wish you felt how I feel,
You tell me you understand,
But I know what you say isnâ??t real,
I know you want to let go of my hand.

So please- just let me be,
Iâ??ll find out you donâ??t care,
Please donâ??t lie to me,
I want you to mean it when you say for me youâ??ll be there.

Iâ??m scared of life you see,
Iâ??m scared of telling the truth,
Because I know that people will hate me,
Well I know they already do.

I just want you to know,
Iâ??m staying alive for you,
I donâ??t want to let go,
I want you to be there for me- no matter what I doâ?¦