You Never Loved Me

*this actually isn't about a boyfriend... sadly it's about my grandmother.*

You never loved me
I don't know how I never knew
I've known you my whole life
I've never known the real you
Am I really that unlovable
You just had to push me away
You loved to see me hurt
It's what you lived for everyday
Every time I'd go visit
You'd try to make me cry
Still I held you dear in my heart
I really don't know why
The day I learned the truth
My tears blinded out my sight
I went through the day like a robot
I was crying throughout the night
I haven't gone over in a while
I'm giving you what you asked for
A part of me hopes you've missed me
Another wants to hate you forever
Then you call and say you want me back in your life
Even after you caused me so much pain
And even though I may come back over
My feelings toward you will stay the same