Curled in my purple fuzzy chair
Starring into the abyss of a rainy day
Contemplating life and what Ive become
Ive come a long way
From the time when razors were still kissing my wrist nightly
Many friends Ive lost on my life journey
Some the left in the darkness of depression
Others Ive simply lost to there 15 minutes of fame
I have some friends very close to me that are contemplating suicide
Once again so am I
Dreadfully I have given up on having anything to look forward to
My parents are yet again thinking of moving
It hasn't even been a year since I was torn from my last home
Tears are useless to me
Blood brings the temporarily release
I gave up my goals long ago
I cannot sing anymore I got really sick and scarred the tissue
I had a beautiful voice I was ready to record my first album now I never can
I used to climb outside in the foulest of weather
Until I fell 13 feet and fractured my leg, at the last competition before nationals
My only relief now lies within myself
I have to reach deep inside and find it
And bring it out for the world to see
I have something to look forward to but I don't know what it is anymore
I just have to look at the world around me to find it
Look past my cavernous and dark blue eyes
You will see a girl of a torn and broken past
With scars on her wrist to prove it
Gaze into these eyes so in need of hope
But they lost that hope so long ago
What has happened to it I do not know
Although what I do know
Is I need it back
Or once again razors will kiss my wrist
This time it will be most certainly the last time
(c) Hillary Dorsey
~its not very good but leave your rates and comments please
