Awake

I lie here awake
waiting for your
call. Listening
to our song,
over and over
again. waiting
here for your
screen name
to show up on
the screen.
Wanting you
to IM me.

Sitting here,
thinking if you
do really like
me. Or if you
lying to me.
So mad that
I can't talk to
you. Do you
really understand
how I feel? Am I
just an other
girl that fell
for your spell?
Should I trust you
if you tell me its
OK?

Here I am
awake again.
Another day has
gone by. Wondering
if you forgot about me.
Nothing ever went
wrong before.
So why is it happening
now? What happened
to us? Or did you
find some one
else?

Sitting here depressed
as anything. Listening
to sad songs about
death to take
the pain away.
Instead of razors I
use knifes, cause
the pain comes
and goes. But it
won't leave this soul.

Another night
siting here awake. My
friends tell me to
forget about it. But
my heart tells me to keep
thinking about you.
I know I need some
sleep, But what if he calls
and I don't answer the phone?
What if he signs on
and i don't get his IM?

Not again. I fell
for it again. Thinking that
you really did love me.
Thinking that you
understood me.
I was wrong. I should
have listened to the
people who know me best.

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