The night before christmas

The night before Christmas and I'm feeling alone
no one to turn to I'm all on my own

the night before Christmas, all i want to do is hide
all i want is for you to be by my side

the night before Christmas, please just go away
i don't want to share my feelings, no one understand what i say

the night before Christmas i don't get to feel your warm embrace
i don't get to feel your skin and the feeling of our hearts race

the night before Christmas and the whole worlds half asleep
they are all so happy when all i do is weep

the night before Christmas and all we do is fight
you just yell and scream for not doing something right

the night before Christmas and I'm not prefect but stand accused
all the f u k i n lies and feeling that I've been used

the night before Christmas can't seem to make myself OK
everyone asks if I'm depressed and of course "no" is what i say

the night before Christmas, "Maddy please just wear a smile"
whats the point in putting one on when it only lasts a while??

the night before Christmas and i look into your eyes
seeing how sad it is that you are falling for all his lies

hey everyone this poem has different bits of my life in it like the last paragraph is just saying how mum is falling for my stupid step dads lies and shes always backing him up trying to deny the truth that he's a as*hole, accusing me, i cant be with the one i love before Chrissy and it breaks my heart!! fighting with parents all the time, people saying to wear a smile but i really cannot be bothered faking one anymore.