Daughters Last Wish

Growing up, when I was little
I thought he’d come back for me
MyMaybee’d look at me from heaven
And just be able to see

I always thought he’d come back
To take me away from this pain
And in my life, these stupid thought
Were the only thing keeping me sane

I thought he could see the beatings
See the bruises and every little scar
But I guess from heaven you don’t
Ever actually see that far

I’d imagine what he’d look like
And how we’d always be having fun
I could so vividly imagine
His smile in the burning sun

I’d think of how he’d meet my boy friend
And what would run through his head
I would have these conversations
And speak every word what was said

But now, I guess I was naïve
I was feeding my ever need
I just seemed to help so much
I felt for a minute I was being freed

But he isn’t here when I need him
I still wonder what he’d say
When I told him of my broken heart
And the guy I wanted to stay

I can almost feel his warm embrace
As on his shoulders I bare my soul
I can almost hear his voice whispering
“baby, this is out of my control”

I wonder if he’s in heaven caring
Wishing he could make me feel good
Preying to the lord to let him out
And I wonder if he would

I want to know his opinion
No matter how mean or how bleak
I want him to raise my head
And tell me not to be weak

I need him now more than ever
This is a daughters last wish
To fall asleep on him crying
And get tucked in with a kiss

I’d live this feeling forever
Just to experience this with him
And the only way to ever do this
Is to commit the ultimate sin

So open the gates to heaven
Cause daddy, I’ll see you there soon
I will finally escape my living hell
And be rid of all this doom

Again for my daddy