What a wonderful Christmas...

Look at me it's Christmas Eve,
I still can't let anybody in,
I thought it would be a relieve,
Yet I still can't grin.

No matter how hard I try,
I can't forget the past,
Through my teeth I must lie,
How long is this going to last?

We're all a happy family,
Sitting round the tree,
Everyone's sitting happily,
Well everyone but me.

If I tell my family,
It will ruin their time,
It wont be such a great holiday,
I just wish they were really mine.

This family's falling apart,
And it's all because of me,
It's all because of locked up heart,
But I don't know who has the key.

So once again another funfilled Christmas,
All ruined by the truth,
But don't tell anyone I don't want to be mischevous,
Keep my death a secret between me and you...