All downhill

Bathing in my own blood

cringing at my ignorance

i get in the boiling hot water

and bake-

ashamed of crying

ashamed of letting myself fall

once again

hes proven right

im weak-

mind over matter

matter over mind

it no longer matters

im in too deep

too engaged with the person i love most

as well as his girlfriend

to make my own decisions

to make everything right-

with all my heart i wish

i could feel that kiss

see that smile

that i used to bring

hear those words that i foolishly beleived-

it was never a dream come true

more like a nightmare

with him being the one exception

making everything ok-

stupid me

put to the side

though still being loved

i feel cheated

i dont say n e thing

i jus think

i let him see the deepest parts of me-

to top it off

i may be carying his baby-

foolish girl

bathing in her own blood

cant cry no more

he dosnt like it

cant talk no more

he wont allow it

cant feel no more

cant cut no more

cant release the pain

cuz he'll get mad-

ignorant child

beleives him still

cant let go

weakend by obssession

by the horrible curse

of falling inlove

too deep

for anyone to handle-

yet

if its ment to be

he'll come back

he has to

he must

theres no question-

foolish girl

filled with ignorance

will never learn

so it must be

like it used to be

b4 him

it must be

all down hill

from here...