As I sleep at night,
you got into a fight.
The police had won,
and my pain had begun.
Mom told Ashley,
but I couldn't see,
that they were hiding a lie,
and when i found out I started
to cry.
Ever since I was born
you had sworn yourself to a gang.
You went out and sold drugs,
and all I was looking for was a
hug goodbye.
I got dressed up for the father
daughter dance,
but you never got a chance to
take me there,
you were always busy with your job.
when I sob on my pillow,
I think about how you were never
there, it almost seems as if you
never cared.
I begin to realize that its my fault,
if I wasn't born, you wouldn't be
in jail.
Now I can see how Ashley hates you
it just hurts me so bad, and I bet
she is glad.
Did you know she stands over my
bed, saying that she wishes you
were dead, and tells me she hates
you, just to see me cry.
I cut myself the other day,
people would say, it relieves the
pain. But it just makes it all gain.
I'm almost 14 now, with out a father
and now his little daughter is all
grown up. You never got to see me
run, and how happy I was when I
won! You never saw my face
when I made the A team for basketball, you just heard about it
when you called. You never got the
chance to take me to a dance. You were never there when I turned 13.
You should have seen my fabulous party. You were never there when my knee gave out, and when I had
to go to the hospital. But most of
all you were never there, to teach
your daughter how to be brave, You were never there to save me,
when that man came after me.
Now as I lay silent in my grave
you luckily can be brave,
by holding back your tears
to all those years you've missed.
