Look past what you see

Everyday you see me smiling...

Laughing...joking...

But did you ever think to see past it at the depression dying to overwhelm me...to take my soul...and engulf my heart....into darkness. To eat at the last slice of peace that I have left.

I laugh to make you happy, not because I want to. I smile to veil the hurt and the pain...no escaping. I have to be strong. For me, and no one else.

Call it a lie, if you must, but I\'ll stick to calling it my life.