It hurts

I am in pain
all over
inside and out
from top to bottom
side to side
everything i do brings me pain
when i walk
when i try to smile
or talk
when i try to lay down
or sit
maybe kneel
it takes so much effort
just to move my fingers and toes
i just want to go numb-
i am in pain
all over
from top to bottom
side to side
everything hurts
my heart is torn
my blood
a deeper shade of blue
my mind on over load
my bones sore
eyes
glistening with tears
my soul gone
and your not here to help me-
my only alternative is
to become completely still
eyes closed
take slow
shallow breaths
and try to imagine you holding me
tell me
everything is going to be OK
i need you here
i need you here
i need you here
finally i fall asleep
my second choice
after death...
but at least I'm not expected to be alive when sleeping
so i try to sleep on forever
trying to forget all my pain
to leave behind everything and everyone
but you...
your sweatshirt my blanket
your poems my dreams
with your sweet smell
surrounding me
i sleep on...