I want to kiss you

I want to kiss you
not some sweet
sexy
soft touch
where both our lips meet
and our tongues intertwine
i don't want to feel love
nor lust
of any kind
i want to kiss you
hard and fast
full of hate
full of loathing
i want to dry your mouth
i want your lips to become raw
to redden
to split
i want your tongue to bleed
dark
red
drops
i want your eyes to shed tears of
hate
sadness
loss
and pain
i want to taste the mixture
of your sweet blood
and salty tears
then to pull away
and disappear
just like that
like i was never here
like you were never here
cause its the only way i Will be able to get enough closure
that i can let go of enough pain that you have so graciously bestowed upon me
to be able to make it through the rest of my days
without having to love you
without having to feel you
so thats why
i want so much
to kiss you