I'm so confused, why tell me now, why not sooner, 15 years old she would of been my own sister, damn it mom and dad why did you keep a secret from me was it because you knew how i would react to your lying, well i reacted worst because i heard from my little brother, why keep it a secret, why did you never tell me i had an older sister who's now in her grave cold and white since she was not even a year, how did she die mom? Was it because you can't look after kids, come on we all know I'm lucky to be alive. Sister you would of probably been the nicest in the family, damn it why didn't they tell me about you, I'm crying knowing you're dead i wish we could of met, i wish you were alive to be honest, well i love you and i guess i miss you, mom isn't proud of me well she never was proud of anyone but it's for a silly reason because i have a great girlfriend called Sammy she's lovely. I hope you're safe you're in a better than here trust me I'm sure you know that, i bet you watch down on me, shame i never knew you were around, well i got to go i love you i won't forget i have you now i know. damn it mom and dad she's 15 today and no one even knows.
* this is about a big sister i never knew i had until today, and it's her birthday today too damn i wish i knew before now*
