You sit there crying
looking down at the hideous pictures
of the hideous girl
that is you
and you want to disapear
you want to rip the papers to shreds then walk off but you cant
so you just sit
and stare
you stare at the girl who eats too much
who promises herself every day that she will stop
but never does
the girl whos face is too pale and covered in pimples
who has fat rolling over everywhere
and tries to hide it with baggy clothes
you loath this girl
she is so pitiful
you cant understand how people can even stand to look at her
to be around her
you dont understand why they arnt totally grossed out
arnt they seeing what your seeing?
arnt they seeing this hideous
broken structure
this caged soul
with a fake smile on her face
the hatred in her eyes
cant they see she just wants to go numb
but she cant
she just wants to die
but she cant
she is stuck in this person that she cant even look at
this sad girl is sickened by herself
yet she hasnt done anything to change
she just stays caged
trapped
her mind taunting her
too fat
too ugly
not worthy
a mistake
this girl in the picture makes so many mistakes
she deserves to be burned
to be tortured
to be hurt
to suffer
her heart has been broken
cracked
ripped
smashed
torn
but still refuses to leave her
this pitiful girl looks down wherever she goes
slouching
trying to hide from the world
you cant take it any longer
look away
how could anyone stand to see this image
this distorted figure
that is me
