Think of me

I think of you day & night
I wonder if you're OK
Maybe you aren't alright
And you are so far away

Maybe you're calling my name
Maybe something is wrong
Nothing is the same
I keep replaying our song...

Emily, i don't see you no more
Except for a time or two
I saw you at the store
And i didn't know what to do

I gave you a hug
And i wiped a tear from my eye
Am i OK? I gave a shrug
The time doesn't seem to easily pass-by

I remember it was last year
School just started again
And you're mother became my fear
When she put our school days to an end

I couldn't even talk
I was choking on everything i said
So i sat like a rock
And threw a blanket over my head

I cried so much
My eyes were brick red
Your hand i just needed to touch
And listen to everything you ever said

When i needed you most
YOU WEREN'T NEAR
It's like I'm living with your ghost
It feels like you aren't here

I don't see you no more
YOU NEVER come around
What's the point of missing you for?
You didn't even WATCH me fall down

I was so mad at you
Because you got lost in the crowd
You, i tried to talk to
But the pain i had was just so loud

You didn't listen
You weren't there
My life you were missing
Did you EVEN care

A month after my low
You asked if i was OK
you didn't even know
Exactly on what to say

it's real girl, it's a scar!
and it is on my wrist
Come as you are
And I'll add this little twist

I was forced Em
to do stuff i didn't want to do
I tried counting to ten
But i couldn't believe that LIFE was true

I didn't want to be here
I wanted to die
I tried to leave too, dear
I never wanted to cry

And now my life is changing
It's turning back around
My world is rearranging
Boy, does that has a wonderful sound

My friends are what i need
My family is still bad
I promise to never bleed
Whenever i get mad

I, Emily, am drug-free
i don't smoke no more
I'm trying to be...
A better person than before

I don't hurt myself
In any kind of way
I know it's hard to tell
Since these scars don't go away

I'm getting a heart test
It seems to hurt a lot
This horrible pain in my chest
Is giving me all that i've got

I use to think a lot
On how i made it this far
I should be dead but I'm not
But I'll take consequences as they are

And Emily you promised me
to ALWAYS be there
And it's hazy here BUT I CAN SEE
Do you still care?

You're not here or anywhere close
And i miss you so much
Where are you? WHO KNOWS
Seems like I'm no longer your crutch

But... I'll always love you
And I'll always be here
No matter what you do
I'll take away every single fear

And if the world leaves you
Alone and cold tonight
You know what you can do
Think of me... and you'll be alright