Love Triangle

The snow falling,
Frosting everything still,
I stare out my window,
My back getting chills.

I see you pull in,
As I hope everything's alright,
I see you slam the car door,
Then i know i shouldn't be here tonight.

I realize theres no escape,
As i look for a place to go,
You walk in the house,
So your anger can show.

Trembling I ask you,
What's wrong as you stare in awe,
You begin to yell with such force,
That i can smell the alcohol.

You begin to yell at,
Hows theres dirt on the floor,
You push me to the ground,
And ask me if I want some more.

Slowly you pull me up by my hair,
But throw me back down,
You begin to rant and rave,
And throw my things around.

You blame me for your problems,
Even though thats you to me,
I'm trying to make this painless,
So I nod my head and agree.

You begin to beat me,
Not caring what you do,
I moan and cry in silent,
Not knowing how this is you.

I wake up in my blood,
You say you're sorry for what you did,
You help me clean up,
And say you'll never do it again.

You say you love me,
I wonder if it's true,
Meaningfully I say it back,
I love you too.

Its amazing how you can be,
A dark angel,
Good and bad at once,
Just like a heavenly hell.

I'm thinking of how to get out,
Of this misery and pain,
But i know i can't because i love you,
And Its hard to accept,
I am in a love triangle game.

Ive never been in an abusive relationship. For all that have, I'm truly sorry. I hope u liked this poem~ Rach