Okay

You walked away from me,
out when in the rain.
But I was okay.
Nobody saw the salty teardrops,
pouring from me hurt hazel orbs,
As you left me standing,
out in the rain.
But I was still okay.
Time had passed.
The tears were gone.
The pain was fading.
The memories were at bay.
I was finally at peace.
More time had gone by.
You were still gone.
And I was still okay.
I worked out the conflicts.
I dealt with the pain.
So everything was still okay.
Then you swiftly came into view.
You acted like nothing went wrong.
Like we had just talked like yesterday.
Time stopped.
Pain flooded.
Tears dropped.
Memories surfaced.
I stood still with time.
As you just talked away.
Like nothing was wrong.
Finally I wasn\'t okay.
I tried to pretend.
But I broke.
You broke me again.
My world shattered.
But I still tried to be okay.
You took everything with ease.
And a grace that I have never had.
But I was still trying to be okay.
When everything wasn\'t okay.
You tried to talk me down.
You pleaded and changed.
You gave me weak excuses,
that later came into view.
You say one thing,
then you say another.
The lies don\'t scar me like they used to.
And that\'s okay.
Even when everything else isn\'t.
You squeeze my heart full,
only to squeeze it empty again.
Just let me go.
It\'ll be okay, don\'t be afraid.
I was scared and hurt.
But now I\'m okay.
Once I needed you.
But you just walked away.
And that was just okay.
Then you needed me,
and I was ready and waiting.
But see that\'s not okay.
Yet I\'m still here.
And I\'m not scared.
But I\'m not okay.
I had to work through things.
Make my amends.
To be okay.
When you went away.
But now you\'re back.
And we have amends to mend.
To be okay again.
Now the next move is your.
I was a pawn in a game.
The game is over.
Because I\'m okay.
You can walk away.
Or you can stay.
So that we can finally be okay.