My past is full of promises I selfishly failed to keep.
Now my heart is aching with a pain that's dreadfully deep.
I often took you for granted, figured you'd always be there.
And I never got to tell you just how much I really did care.
I always knew I loved you; I just never knew how much.
Not until you left me, and I forever lost your touch.
The pain is so unbearable, and I don't know what to do.
How can I continue on, or try to make it through?
They say I have to learn to accept you're gone for good.
Yet I cannot bring myself to do that, even though I know I should.
Sometimes I think I can feel you, as though you are still near,
Though when I go to search for you, I cannot find you here.
With each new day I wonder if there really is a world above.
Some place where I can send you a little more of my love.
A place where you find comfort in everything you do,
Where you're no longer faced with the misery you once knew.
Deep down inside I know you have gone to a better place,
But if I could have just one wish, it would be to see your face.
To tell you that I love you, and that in my heart you will stay.
That I'll run to you with open arms on my final resting day.
I don't quite understand how a broken heart can continue on,
Without that vital piece, the one that is now gone.
In case you start to question if another could play your role,
Just remember one thing Mom, only you could make me whole.
No other person could ever provide me with that unique kind of love,
So continue to look down upon me, from that place way up above.
You remain the light that guides me, that shelters me from the cold.
But I'll always wonder why you left me, for you were not yet old.
There were so many things left undone when we were here together.
It could never be the same if I tried to describe them in a letter.
I pray for the opportunity to have just one more day or two,
To let go of some regrets I have, and thank you for being you.
I wish I knew an easier way to ease my pain and sorrow,
For now I will just hope that it will lessen come tomorrow.
My love for you grows stronger with each and every new day,
If you show me where to send it, I am sure it will find its way.
Before I say good-bye to you, there is just one more little thing;
You have given my life meaning, and whatever tomorrow may bring,
I will work to make you proud Mom, yearn to see you smile.
That is my promise to you Mom, but please understand it may take awhile.
