I don't like me

I look in the mirror and hate what i see
I wish you knew what it's like to be me
My heart still beats and my blood is still red
But deep inside of me i know i am dead
I do not sleep, care nor eat
I hate the sound of my heartbeat
I search inside me and i find hate,
Pain and suffering to which i can relate
I feel so much pain yet hold it all back, try not to cry
Live another day just wanting to die
I walk past the mirror and turn away my head
Seeing my face reminds me...I'm not yet dead
I hate my chest and what lies within
I hate my face but i will not give in
My body makes me sick and i feel no happiness and experience no smile
I hate myself...not at certain times but all of the while
I drag the scissors across my skin
I see the blood that lies within
I go unnoticed all through the day
I hate myself in every way
I don't want to exist anymore, i don't want to be...
It's not that I'm weird, I just don't like me...