Cuts For Daddy's Pain

She lied,
she cheated.
She came crawling back.
I cut for my daddy's pain.
And hoped I didn't even up that way.
I could tell my daddy was hurt.
I took the pain for him.
I cut my arm for his pain,
but his pain didn't go away.
My daddy was still that way.
Sadness and pain.
Did he stumble?
No, he got up and was happy to have me.
I was still in pain.
I didn't forgive her.
I dislike her to this day,
but the pain didn't go away.
I figured out after two years that I wasn't cutting for his pain.
I was cutting for all the harsh things she said.