I don't know.........................

I don't know why I do it. It just gives me an energy rush, it feels relieving. I don't know I'm doing it unitl it's done. It's like I zone out and can't control my actions. One second everythings as it should, then suddenly, blood is rushing down my wrist. There is no pain, there is no fear, nothing, but relief.

*this isn't really a poem, it's just part of the story that I'm writing.