The insanity of being alone

Screaming as loud as I can
screaming for you
screaming for sanity
screaming 'What can I do?'

No one is here
no one is around
not a single noise is made
not a single sound

Feeling so helpless
feeling so weak
but when someone is here
I never want to speak

I'm fine when im with someone
I'm fine when it's a crowd
but it's not right without someone here
it's just not allowed

Please don't leave me
please don't let me go
because what i'll do while you're gone
I really don't know

I don't want to be alone
to know there's no help
no one to hear my please
no one to hear me yelp

Seein blades in my hand
seein them in my head
please let it be a ringing mobile
in my hand instead

I don't want anyone to be told
i don't want anyone to see
i dont want people to witness
what lonelyness does to me

Just stop it from being
stop it from being alive
i dont like being weak
confidence is the only way I strive