I've been Daddy's girl from Day One. My first word was "Dadda." I've always wanted to do what Daddy was doing, go where Daddy was going, read what Daddy was reading, say what Daddy was saying... but now that is all gone... I came out of my shell...grew up and started living my life...all the time i spent with my dad faded away... he now has a grandchild and I've got pushed aside, the only time spent with him now is football matches and even then we ain't exactly alone... i can't talk to him about anything anymore, we used to go swimming every Sunday morning when i was little, the whole family did and it was great... now all that has gone... I'm alone in this big wide world fighting to survive...watching my father just blank me hurts so much, I wanna be the daddy's girl i used to be...i don't wanna be alone...
Sometimes i just wish i could just be a little kid again, so when life gets tough i can just play pretend... I wanna go back to when Santa did exist... when daddy was the only male I ever kissed... When Disney world was the best place to be... When my biggest problem in life was learning how to write my name... When ever I had a bad day at primary school or fell out with friends all i had to do was run to my daddy and he'd give me cuddles from then on I knew everything would be okays... I wanna go back to no hurting... no pain... Just laughter... but I know now that will never happen... Daddy isn't my daddy anymore...he's changed... I've changed... we both moved on... I've had to grow up quickly... and now it's all gone... I'll always love him and I know thats true... i take after him... I'm a true Lowe... and always will be... I can get married and change my last name but the Lowe inside me will never go...it'll be with me forever...
