True

And so I stay hidden,
Hidden inside the fake me.
Waiting and longing,
For someone to finally see.

No personality, no beauty,
This is what I am now.
And this is what I had,
Before I let myself fall.

No one to hold me,
No one to see,
That this is not who
I was born to be.

I have to control
Over what happened before,
I also don't have love,
To keep me from being sore.

Why did it occur?
This event changing life,
Can I please go back?
Before I grab the knife.

You have the answer
No I can't go back
Back to that time
When I wasn't in this outgrown sack.

No more longing,
No more being a fake,
I will come out,
For my mother's sake.

She left when I was young,
She left without a goodbye,
I waited for her a long time,
Now I feel like I can't lie.

She hurt me so much,
Left me so alone,
No one was there to look after me,
But it was all done.

I became shy
So small, so fragile,
I felt sad
No one could see me smile.

Tears would fall out of my eyes,
All day and night.
I felt as if I was surrounded by a river,
And I couldn't get out if I tried.

Night was all around me
It became my entire life.
I couldn't come out,
It was just too bright.

I was so afraid,
Fear became my friend.
I would tell her stories,
She would listen till the end.

One sunny day,
My life changed again.
I saw something for the first time.
I felt as if I was insane.

That flower,
So bright and colored,
Opened up as if coming out of its shell,
I was touched inside, felt taken away from hell.

I felt the beauty,
I then knew what I'd missed.
When I looked up at the sky,
I felt new & refreshed.

I finally decided
To come out,
Let people see,
See the real me.