Missing him

The moments we had stay in my head.
Missing his smile and laughter.
So many things left unsaid.
Before and After.

Now it's too late.
There was nothing more for me to do.
Everyone is filled with so much hate.
All I keep thinking about is the last words "I Love You"

All I do is stare at my wall.
With nothing in my mind but him.
Knowing that he's not going to call.
I just sit here missing him.

I miss the nights we had.
I miss the kisses he gave me.
It makes me so sad.
I did love him truly.

I did push him away.
But he also pushed me away too.
I don't want to wake up each day.
This is something I had to do.

I can't stand to look at the stars at night.
Cause I see his smile in my mind.
I hate that we always fight.
But he was always so kind.

I miss him next to me.
But he will never be in my arms again.
Maybe this was meant to be.
It had to end.

I pray to God for me to never forget him.
He stuck by my side.
I will always be there for him.
Now all I do is go in my room and hide.

I let him slip out of my arms.
It's so hard to put on a fake smile on anymore.
I can't seem to stay warm.
I walked out the door.

The door is now shut for good.
I don't see the point in waking up in the mornings.
I did everything I could.
I missed all the warnings.

Now I sit here in pain again.
But the pain was worth being in his arms.
It's now the end.
I let him leave just like that.

I don't want to speak.
I don't want to listen to all the people who feel sorry for me.
There's nothing for me to seek.
I just need to let this be.

I don't regret anything cause I have these beautiful memories.
I miss the look in his eyes when he looked at me.
It made me feel so right to be with him.
But it's all over now.

All I do is stare at the wall.
With nothing in my head but him.
Knowing that he won't call.
Now I just sit here missing him.

Our love was something so special.
I can't stand being in my room cause I am so lonely.
So I leave and think of him.
I can't take anything back...
I just can't...