For a split second...

Everyone has dreams.
But mine seem to be nightmare's.
But you wouldn't know cause you don't care.
You were there.
But you weren't.
So you wouldn't understand how bad it hurt.
It killed me to see my mommy kill herself.
Watching you made my insides melt.
One beer after another.
That was the life of my mother.
Well mom now your old.
And you can't say that you weren't ever told.
I told you to quit drinkin.
You saw your life start sinkin.
But still you kept on drinkin.
And now your thinkin.
That I'm gonna help you out.
Your still convinced I'm gonna help you now.
You weren't there for me then.
I won't reach for your hand again.
I'll fall before I reach for you.
Only cause you let me fall through.
You let me down.
You watched me fall to the ground.
Stared without a sound.
Where were you then mommy.
Where were you when your daughters were cryin.
And your only son felt like dyin.
I picked up my sisters and held them close.
Because to me they mattered the most.
I loved them more then you did.
And I was still a kid.
Beat by your own son.
And now you don't know what you've done.
You cry yourself to sleep everynight.
Wishing you could have done that right.
Your kids are no longer in sight.
I love you mom I do.
But I can't bring myself to reach out to you.
Now all three kids are gone.
And you don't know where you went wrong.
Silence is your only friend.
Silence is how your day is spent.
They days grow darker and colder.
Your baby girls are getting older.
I wanted you to pretend you were my mommy.
That would have meant the world to me.
Where are all of your kids that you miss?
Well ask yourself this.
Where were you when your daughters were crying.
Where were you when your son felt like dying.
For me those days cried.
After all the nights that I cried.
I bleed for you.
After everything that you put me through.
I love you mommy, I do.
Could you pretend for me.
For me mommy.
Just once.
That's all I'm asking.
Just for a split second...