Father

I wish i had a father,

someone to love me,
someone to care for me,
to hold me tight when i am sad,
to procet me from the bad people,

does he ever thing about me?
does he wanna see me at all?
does he love/care about me?
does he have a picture of me?
why hasn't he called?
or maybe wrote a letter?

i wonder if i will ever see him again,
i feel afaird of him,
is that bad?
to be afraid of someone who you haven't seen in 9 years?

do you think he's afaired of me?
how could he,
he's a grow man?

i wonder how old he is,
does he still have brown hair?
or is it gray now?
id he single?
is he married?
does he have other kids?
if he does,
do they live with him?

does he still have those ugly blue sweat pants still?
does he chew with is mouth open still?
does he still have a viper looking care still?
if hes does is it blue still?
is he fat?
is he skinny?
does he still have muscles/in shape?

i wonder about all these things and more,
but what i wonder the most if he loves me?
and does he ever wanna see me again?