Sick and stupid????

People looking, staring and laughing
the feeling of embarrassment never leaves
why are they laughing?
i haven't done anything wrong
but they carry on laughing.
maybe I'm just paranoid as i look behind me
there is no one there
the people laughing used to be my friends
before they found out the horrid truth
about who i am and what i do
you said i was sick and stupid
those words rattling around my head
all i could think about
nothing made sense
when i was alone they were still there
stupid sick stupid sick
two small words but so harmful
in more ways than i ever imagined
i was all alone no one to help me
i thought that was the end
i thought that was it
it wasn't the end of the world
i could make it on my own
...... how wrong i was
sat alone most nights my blade in my hand
the only reliable friend i had left
the horrid remarks and nasty looks
i could just about cope with
but the constant laughing
was to much to bare
i left the school that year
and it all stopped
but these memories will never leave me
ill always hate you
all of you....