Not today

How i wish
it was me you thought of
before you sleep
and when you dream
and how i wonder
of the things you see in her
but cant see in me
isn't it amazing
how you make me smile
my biggest smiles
and yet you cause
the all these tears ive shed
and still
i crave the attention
from you
i adore the pain
as long as its
from you
just tell me lies
play with my heart
hold me on a string
just don't cut me loose
not now
at least
not today