Life in care...

Written wen i was 17;

I'm starting to realize
In all of this mess
I was adopted
By C.A.S.
My mommy took off
She's not coming back
Don't talk to my father
I hear he's on crack

Who was i raised by
I don't have a clue
The longest mother i've known
Would probably be you
My love that i've given
And the love being shown
Do I have permission
To call it my own?

Can i continue my life
Now that she's gone?
Can i hide away this gun
Oh all alone?

Can i call you my mom
Without being so wrong?
Can i call you my family
In each of my songs?

I cant lose my sister
My brother my niece
I cant lose my nephew
I wouldnt live in peace

And if i'd ever lose you
I wouldnt know what to do
I'd probably go crazy
Then kill myself too!
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This poem was dedicated to Therese Blais. One of mah foster mother's and the only one i cant seem to let go...