Oxymoron

I don't know what to think anymore
i loved you
you betrayed me
but here you are day after day
you hold me up when i start to sink
do i forgive you
for all the times you stole a piece of me
i am broken
but you're the one with the super glue
i can't bear the thought
of losing you completely
did i dismiss this too fast
is there something i still don't know
you were slowly killing me
but now you're the one
who desperately tries to heal the wounds
those friends i fought with
because of your stupidity
are long gone now
they left while they had the chance
so why are you still here
you're the one who caused all the pain
or maybe i'm the one with all the problems
a heart is no different than a vase
if you break it you must buy it
you did a pretty good job of breaking it
now you must buy it back
and fix the holes
that you used to fill