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As I lay here tonight at 1:09 am
I reminince everything we went through
How could I not know what was standing in front of me?
Now I sit here as these tears burn through my cheeks
Deciding whether or not I should die
Cause without you I can't live
I can't stand waking up in the morning because I had a dream about you once again
I can't stand walking the halls praying not to see your beautiful face
but yet wishing to get a glimpse of you
I can't stand to know you talk to my friends and not me
I can't to look at the phone
knowing you will never call again
I can't to think about you holding her body close to yours
I can't picture your lips kissing hers
I don't want to see you smile for her and not me
But it has to happen
It's the way life goes
But i love you more than anything and always will
No matter who we are with
or how much we fight
You are number 1 in my heart
I just hope I am number 1 in yours
I miss you calling me baby
I miss you telling me how much you love me
I miss your voice
I miss you and everything about you
Don't hate me for it
I just want to know that I am in your heart
and your thoughts
I don't want to be just your past
I want to be a beautiful memory
unfortunately all I will ever be
But you aren't a memory to me
You are my angel....