Lies Of This Girl

This is my heart.
I can't lied to it,
but I tried.
It didn't work,
it knows me too well.
It knows I still love him,
no matter what happens.
I am waiting for him to come around.
I have been staring out my window.
Thoughts of the things he said, run through my head.
I sit there and smile.
Well, my heart told myself this other guy I had was great to me, but he wasn't the one I needed.
I heard my head and heart agreeing that I let the best thing I had in my life get away.
I had a feeling that my heart and head were saying you lost him and you know it.
You can't change it.
You hurt him with the harsh words.
That anger caused.
I can't get over what my mom did and this anger shows at the wrong times.
Times I wish it wouldn't.