This is a poem just kind of about the first guy I loved or thought I loved...
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He was a football player a senior
She was a freshman unclassified
A game of spin the bottle
Her 1st kiss
Him full of passion
To her it was just a game
Until...
It was done
The kiss over
She thought to her self man I like him
Three weeks later they\'re a couple
The oddest
But they\'re it
Him in his letterman\'s jacket
Her w/ her black cloths pink hair and love of music
They love each other
But a secret she held
No one knew
The longer things went on
The closer he wanted to be
Wanting to know her every thought
Just what made this girl tick?
The more she pushed him away
But faithfully he always came back
Asking to be let in
But she turns him away
She can\'t let him know she\'s scarred
Sheâ??s not supposed to get scarred
She couldn\'t let him in because then he\'d know
Sheâ??s just like everyone else
Just with a harder shell and a softer inside
People especially him couldn\'t know that love is the thing she fears most
That she hates emotions they always let her down
Especially love
Someoneâ??s always hurt
Bad things happen
So that was the end
She let him go
She left
Gave him the old it\'s not u line
Man did she mean it
Didn\'t give him any real reason
Which she now regrets
He was confused
Real hurt
Told people he wishes she would have talked to him
That they could have fixed things
He could have changed
But he was perfect
She wouldn\'t have changed a thing
But he didn\'t love her
She knew it
She needed stability in her life
And he was it
But she wasnâ??t
He didnâ??t know
That secret that she hid deep
How she really wasnâ??t loud or social
That that was just a front
She was of survival
She honestly would rather have chilled just the two of them
She doesnâ??t like people they are dishonest
And lots of the time untrustworthy
How could she explain it to him?
She couldnâ??t
She pushed him away for good
Now he walks around with his friends happy and laughing
She canâ??t hold her head high
She put her fears before the one she loved
Sheâ??ll never forgive herself
She cries at night missing him, loving him,
Sheâ??ll never ask for him back
She might hurt him
And if she did that again she doesnâ??t know what sheâ??d do
But heâ??ll always hold her heart
He was her first love
And sheâ??ll love him always
But she needs to move on
She canâ??t love him any longer
She has to get over him and that is what I am doing!!
