Can i have my lighter back i ask my mom that day she said no your too young.i remember when i was younger i used to play down by the creek. thats where me and my friends used to meet. know that i runaway from my mom and dad everything has gone so sad..they cry and cry not knowing why...can i just have my lighter back?
As i got older time came and when i used to be such a goodie now im all about packing and getting what i want. those boys come in and through my life. now that i see i hate him i ask my self why? i cant see why life left me this way...why cant i just see myself the old way..i used to cry because my mom and dad wouldnt let me outside...well i wonder why. can i just have my lighter back?
Now im older and ive grown wiser..i smoked at the age of 13 and all i could think of was getting waisted..i ran away to get the pain off my mind..drank until the bottle was as clear as my mind. all i wanted was my life back..i wanted to see a smile on my face again,what happend? i didnt understand but now i do. the wrong track can lead to about anything as long as it has you.
I used to cry my self to sleep when my mother died..she told me that i couldnt have my lighter back. i asked her why? she said-baby i know this isnt you.you wouldnt do this to me. i love you so much,just can you promise me not to smoke.?-and i gave her that promise but then i broke it again. it hurt my mommas heart to see i was going through it all again. life got harder day by day..i started to die. then the next few months..i was living with sorrow in my eyes. the day we burried her was the day i went away..so far away to were god eyes couldnt even see me.
As my life has grown longer ive noticed my pain. i try to drink it away but nothing seems to work. i still got the old bottle..that i even take to work. i never have seen the light of the day.i stay in my house and wait for the rain..gods eyes cant even see my pain.and as i die..i still ask my mother..can i have that lighter back?
