Wishing too much

Why am I wishing to be the girl for you
When you are not the one for me
Always thought I was something more
But the truth is becoming easier to see

I built myself up so high
To a standard that is not your own
I thought I held a special place
But I have been wrong with every thought I have known

When we talk it is so casual
But with others you are so sincere
I know you can speak with passion
But those are words I can only wish to hear

When you think of me do you smile
Or have any feeling at all
Why do I think I mean so much to you
I only set myself up to fall

Every day is a reminder
That you forgot about me
And every person that holds your heart
Is a place I can only wish to be

Waiting for the day your view will change
When I wont be just another one
When you can look at me and see depth
Not the shallow things I have done

The one who is not for me
Is the one I want to be perfect for
I want to give you feelings
That you never have had before

I just want a special place
Wishing to be on your mind
Wishing to be someone you never want loose
Because they took you so long to find