Feeling so down
Feeling so low
Reasons to those
I cannot absorb
Though foretold
I still find it hard to engross
Discontent
Ungratified
Sourness
Building up inside
Time wasted
Never to return
For reasons
Unworthy to mention
In the eyes of the passers by
I look for answers
With a burnt out candle
In a dark corner
I cry out for help
Ashamed to mention
Even to myself
How obliterate I have become
A challenge it has become
To daily face her
To face the reflection
That I sourly betrayed
Disappointment lingered
On her worn out face
Her eyes no more twinkled
But her soul still reached out for me
I had no more reasons to offer
So I ran away
But every where I looked
I saw her looking back at me
Smiling
But in her eyes a cry out for help
I creid out to her,
Please
Please spare me the agony
For tears no more soothed me
With nothing more to offer
And nothing more for her to give
I held her in my arms
To soothe her pain
Asked for her forgiveness
For in her rights
I have sinned
I no longer cared
How much time was wasted
No longer bothered
How people responded
No longer feared
The unknown tomorrow
A promise I made
To her that night
I shall light a candle
And step outside
For I have reached a saturation level
From what has become of me
She dried out my tears
And held my hand
As we walked out side
To the unknown land
For so long
I was lost
Trying to figure out
What has come of me
No one to blame
Neither my self
For I was young
And had to learn
Tears of bitterness
Are so long forgotten
For now I know
Life is what I make of it
It might take time to accommodate
But I know she would always be there
To hold me when the urge to step back gets the best of me
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Dear all,
"She" in this poem is referred to my reflection in the mirror. I have written this piece at a time I couldn't even face my own reflection.
